The Lies I Tell Myself

I am catching up with http://www.mixedmediamemoirs.com/ which I made a commitment to when I started blogging, it got me to journal more and think weekly of a topic and what it meant to me. This week's topic is 'The lies I tell Myself". I think I brush things off a lot and don't think of how some things affect me, for the safely of myself and others. I take the burden of a lot of hurt feelings of everyone, to spare them pain. In other words, I beat myself up over everything. Sometimes I am just oblivious to things because they bother me so much I cannot confront them. Writing helps, and my new healthy outlook has been helping. I broke down and went to weight watchers, I could stand to lose about 20. I didn't feel so bad when I saw 99% of the people there were a lot larger than I was. I felt that this is not so much of an issue, it can be fixed with the loss of a few pounds, that is all. I have achieved greater things in life, why make it so hard. So, I have been doing it for a week, getting through my 10 hour work days easier with more energy, accomplishing more around the house, feeling better in my clothes. I don't have a scale, so I don't know how much I have lost, I hope I did some because it will feel better when they go around the room with success stories. So, I have already come a long way with the Reading True Balance group, I am grateful to have found this book and the group reading it. (I have to post the photo tomorrow, cant upload it for some reason)....