Hurt Soul

I felt empty yesterday, and was feeling guilty about it. Something happened that just put me into a state where I just gave up on the day. I have every other weekend off, now I feel incomplete and drained going back to work this morning. I have been struggling with sleeping, and have been very irritable lately. I don't want to be this way. Sometimes it is easier to pull myself out of this pit, I am trying hard today. I hope that my sensitivity towards others will remain a part of me today. Last night it did not, I yelled at Kayla because she did not go to bed until 10pm. I am suffering over it today. I love her so much and know I hurt her greatly. When she gets up this morning, all I can do is promise to myself and her I will never do it again. I wish I could handle more and want to, but feel I do the best with what I have. I need to keep some sort of sense of myself today and consider all others along the way. It is hard to get moving today. I want my heart to be complete.